1. 僕の命っつったって 誰の命っつったって 時時々 公平に 裁かれるもんなんでしょ

Romaji: Boku no inochi ttsuttatte, dare no inochi ttsuttatte, tokitokidoki kōhei ni sabakareru mon nan desho

Cultural Nuance: "Whether it's my life or someone else's, I guess it gets judged fairly sometimes."

🗣 Japanese Insight: Ttsuttatte (っつったって) is a casual, contracted form of と言ったって ("even if you say"), carrying a dismissive, faintly defiant tone. 時々 is the basic Japanese word for "sometimes" or "occasionally," but here the lyric writes it as tokitokidoki (時時々) — an unusual spelling that repeats the character for 時 one extra time. Later in the song, this same technique of repeating a word over and over is used on a much larger scale, so this small repetition acts almost like a preview of that device.

Sabakareru (裁かれる) literally means "to be judged" in the legal sense, as in a courtroom verdict. In Japanese news reporting, the letter "A" is used to denote an anonymized individual, but this is not limited to a defendant (被告) — it can refer to any party whose identity is withheld. This word choice echoes the title "Shoujo A" (少女A) itself, evoking the tension of an anonymized figure being evaluated and judged.

Mon nan desho (もんなんでしょ) is a casual contraction of 〜ものなんでしょう, which sounds less like a genuine question and more like a resigned murmur to oneself.

2. 暗い空にやってきた 鬱を連れてやってきた 時々雨 総計に 頼り切りだ どうしよう

Romaji: Kurai sora ni yattekita, utsu o tsurete yattekita, tokidoki ame sōkei ni tayorikiri da, dōshiyō

Cultural Nuance: "A dark sky has come, bringing depression along with it. Sometimes it rains — completely dependent on everything that has added up. What to do?"

🗣 Japanese Insight: Utsu o tsurete yattekita (鬱を連れてやってきた, "came bringing depression along") personifies an invisible emotion — 鬱 (utsu), meaning depression or a low mood — as though it were a companion walking alongside the speaker.

Sōkei ni tayorikiri da (総計に頼り切りだ) pairs the formal word 総計 (sōkei, "grand total" or "sum") with the emotional phrase 頼り切る ("to rely completely on"), an unusual combination that suggests the speaker has become unable to move, leaning entirely on some accumulated "total" of anxieties and regrets.

It's worth noting that the official English captions on the U/M/A/A YouTube channel translate this line as "but I'm so leaning onto you." However, these captions were added after Siinamota's passing, so it isn't possible to confirm whether they fully reflect his own intent. We present this here as one possible reading — that behind the formal word "sōkei," there's a dependence on "you."

Dōshiyō (どうしよう, "what should I do") is a candid, unfiltered expression of anxiety with no clear answer in sight.

3. 寒い 寒い 寒い 寒い 言い寄らないで

Romaji: Samui samui samui samui, iiyoranaide

Cultural Nuance: "Cold, cold, cold, cold. Don't come on to me."

🗣 Japanese Insight: Samui (寒い) literally means "cold" in terms of temperature, but here it functions as a metaphor for a frozen, rejecting emotional state rather than a literal chill. In a 2015 interview, Siinamota revealed that he could never quite accept it when adults told him things like 君は若いんだから、まだ失敗してもいい ("you're young, so it's fine if you still fail sometimes"). He explained that his inability to simply accept this well-meaning reassurance is reflected in the repeated cries of samui, and he described the song itself as a moment where フラストレーションがたまって爆発してますね ("my frustration built up and exploded").

言い寄る does not simply mean "to approach" — it specifically means to approach someone with romantic intent, to court or woo them. So the line iiyoranaide (言い寄らないで, "don't come on to me") can be read as directed not just at one specific person, but at anyone trying to approach the speaker with good intentions.

Starting with this cry of samui, this technique of repeating an emotional adjective recurs throughout the song, later shifting into tōi (遠い, "distant"), hayai (早い, "fast"), nikui (憎い, "hateful"), and kowai (怖い, "scary").

4. 何番目でも 何番目でも 僕が僕であるために？

Romaji: Nanbanme demo nanbanme demo, boku ga boku de aru tame ni?

Cultural Nuance: "Whatever number I am, whatever number I am — is it so I can be myself?"

🗣 Japanese Insight: Nanbanme (何番目) means "which number" or "what rank," and repeating it conveys both a resigned indifference — 一番でなくても、何位であっても構わない ("it doesn't matter what rank I hold") — and, at the same time, the frustration of feeling like nothing more than a number to be compared and ranked against others, as in 自分は誰かと比べられ、順位をつけられる存在でしかないのか ("am I nothing more than something to be compared to others and ranked?"). This awareness of being reduced to a number also echoes the culture that existed even back in 2013 on platforms like Niconico Douga, where works and creators were quantified and ranked by view counts and rankings — something many listeners connect to today's social media culture of counting いいね ("likes") and follower numbers. That said, this is a listener's interpretation, and Siinamota has not officially stated that he was thinking of social media or rankings when writing these lyrics.

Boku ga boku de aru tame ni (僕が僕であるために, "in order for me to be myself") expresses a wish to remain oneself apart from comparison and hierarchy, while the question mark at the end lets doubt and a lack of confidence seep into that very wish.

5. 契り集め 持ってきた 契り集め 持ってきた あの日の間違いを 飲み込むのが苦るしくて

Romaji: Chigiri atsume mottekita, chigiri atsume mottekita, ano hi no machigai o nomikomu no ga kurushikute

Cultural Nuance: "Gathering up vows and bringing them here, gathering up vows and bringing them here. Swallowing that day's mistake is so painful."

🗣 Japanese Insight: Chigiri (契り) is a weightier word than a simple "promise" (約束) — it appears in classical Japanese literature and carries the sense of a deep bond or solemn vow. Pairing it with 集める ("to gather"), an act that shouldn't normally apply to a single vow, suggests a desperate attempt to face regret and responsibility too heavy to be carried by any one promise alone — so many vows must be gathered together instead.

Nomikomu (飲み込む, literally "to swallow") is a distinctly Japanese metaphor for holding back what one wants to say or feel rather than expressing it. It shows that "that day's mistake" (ano hi no machigai, あの日の間違い) is neither forgiven nor forgotten, but simply pushed down and endured in silence, painfully.

6. 「子供だましの花ふたつ、」 きっと きっと 諦めたから？

Romaji: "Kodomodamashi no hana futatsu," kitto kitto akirameta kara?

Cultural Nuance: "'Two flowers, nothing more than a childish trick' — surely, surely, because I gave up?"

🗣 Japanese Insight: Kodomodamashi (子供だまし) is a Japanese idiom for something so shallow it could only fool a child — 子供だから騙せる程度の、見え透いた薄っぺらいもの ("something so transparent and flimsy it could only deceive a child"), a phrase used to mock a shallow trick or excuse that no longer works on an adult. Here, it modifies "flowers" (hana, 花), a symbol of beauty and hope, suggesting kodomodamashi no hana (子供だましの花, "flowers that are a child's trick") — comforts or hopes that once felt believable as a child but no longer hold up now that the speaker has grown older.

The quotation marks around this line suggest that it is being quoted directly, as though it were a phrase once spoken by someone else, or one the speaker has repeated to themselves.

7. 怖い 怖い 怖い 怖い 近づかないで 合言葉を繰り返すだけ

Romaji: Kowai kowai kowai kowai, chikazukanaide, aikotoba o kurikaesu dake

Cultural Nuance: "Scared, scared, scared, scared. Don't come close. Just repeating the secret code."

🗣 Japanese Insight: Aikotoba (合言葉) refers to a fixed phrase exchanged between people — the kind used in children's games like tag, or as a secret signal shared only among a certain group. Here, rather than exchanging honest feelings, the speaker can only repeat this fixed aikotoba, capturing a mix of wanting to connect with others and being too afraid to exchange real words.

It's worth noting that the same channel's English captions translate this line as "we just keep repeating our secret code" — using "we," not "I," as the subject. However, these captions were also added after Siinamota's passing, so it isn't possible to confirm whether they reflect his own intent. We present this here as one possible reading — that behind the words of rejection, "scared, don't come close," lies a bond that exists only between the speaker and "you."

The repetition of emotional adjectives builds through the song, from samui (寒い, cold) and tōi (遠い, distant) earlier, to hayai (早い, fast) and nikui (憎い, hateful) in the middle section, and now to this kowai (怖い, scared). As Siinamota himself has described it, this is the moment where an emotional explosion is expressed not through words, but through the sheer repetition of a single cried-out sound. Rather than laying out an explanation in full sentences, this way of hurling a raw block of emotion at the listener means the intensity of the feeling lands before its literal meaning is even understood. Immediately after this, the song closes by repeating samui once again — showing that even after venting this frustration, the speaker has not escaped the original cold and isolation it began with.

🎤 Emotional Summary

"Shoujo A" (少女A) is a song that overlays the speaker's own sense of self onto "Shoujo A," the anonymous figure used to conceal identity in crime reporting, giving voice to the anxiety of growing up, the exhaustion of being constantly compared and ranked against others, and the fear of wanting to be close to someone while being unable to approach them. The relentless repetition of emotional words — samui (寒い), tōi (遠い), hayai (早い), nikui (憎い), kowai (怖い) — mirrors what Siinamota himself described as an explosion of built-up frustration turned directly into sound, echoing the lonely image of someone who can only repeat a hollow aikotoba (合言葉) in place of honest words. Despite having no media tie-in, the song continues to be heard around the world today, driven in part by its viral spread online, and even now, after Siinamota's passing at the tragically young age of 20, it continues to be sung and shared across generations and borders as a mirror for anyone who has ever struggled with the process of growing up.

📚 Sources & References

• ORICON NEWS, "Vocaloid producer Siinamota passes away at 20"

• Natalie (Music Natalie), "Popular Vocaloid producer Siinamota passes away at 20"

• CINRA.NET, "Siinamota Interview" (March 2015)

• U/M/A/A Inc. official YouTube channel, "Siinamota (siinamota) - Young Girl A / Shoujo A" (video and English captions)

• Billboard JAPAN, "Billboard Global Japan Songs Excl. Japan" chart